A Box Full of Darkness
Posted on Instagram on February 10, 2019
“Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift.” (Mary Oliver)
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Someday, after a lot of inner work and stumbling and falling.
After feeling a victim.
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After feeling cursed.
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You come to the point that these words by Mary Oliver start to make some sense.
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You could do without that darkness that was given to you – but you kind of come to terms with the fact that you can either keep feeling miserable about it, or start to use it, someway.
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This pendant is about this.
A reminder for when I will once again go down the old pattern of feeling like that.
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With a Moth for comfort in the darkness.
A hand on each side to remember you are held.
A Seeing Heart in the back, to walk with Wisdom.
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All hand fabricated sterling and fine silver with a stunning little Opal and 18k gold accents.
Ashes Blood and Bones Shawl
Posted on Instagram on February 10, 2019
This is the Ashes, Blood and Bones shawl.
It is right to present this to you as the opening piece, because it started with my reflection on the bones, before it was made in metal, and followed me during the creation of the little collection.
I worked on it for a bit more than a month.
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All the thread I used was hand spun by me on my handmade spindle. I used several breeds of sheep wool for a wide range of texture and hues of white. Some are shiny. Some are rough. Some are soft. Some are an off white, others are more bright.
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It turned out a very big piece, which is good.
It fits.
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I knit the shawl with the white wool, then I dyed it. My process for dye is close to watercolor painting...I dab diluted fabric dye to achieve these subtle splashes of color.
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This is a song about the Ancestors in the widest sense.
The washed grey represents the ashes. The red is for the blood. The natural white is for the bones.
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It is one of a kind, and I wish the pics could capture the tactile experience, and how safe and held it makes you feel ❤️
Quartz Keeper Doll
Posted on Instagram on February 8, 2019
You have seen my drawing about the little beings, and a hint of their bodies in silver.
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This is the first one.
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I totally blame @cavegirldreams and her doll Tippie for how this one turned out 🤣🤣🤣
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I kinda imagined them as whimsical, ethereal creatures...I don't even know how to explain. But I should know better than to have plans when working with dolls.
After much melting and carving and soldering - with the occasional arm falling off and such - I found myself ready for the hair.
The hair I had in mind - very simple very soft - kept falling off. Or melting. Or such accidents.
I took a break.
I went back and my eyes fell on the organic water cast shapes in copper and brass I had made the past week.
"THESE!!!"
Are you kidding me? That will look like a totally weird couture thing on your head. 😳
"THESE!"
...Ok.
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More melting more soldering more carving.
And...my being confused because this being had nothing demure and a LOT of personality.
I swear I though about Tippie and laughed quite a lot 🤣
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Of course she couldn't have normal pics of her taken.
She had to find every hole in the garden rocks and see if she could make her house in it.
See how proud she looks? 😜
36
Posted on Instagram on February 3, 2019
Today I am 36.
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I am used to say I don't care about birthdays. Truth is, I do.
Truth is, I would love to have a nice party with people who love me and a good time.
Truth is, I carry the old story of how it's been so far for me: every birthday there would be arguments or otherwise upsetting things. So I learned to pretend not to care.
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It wasn't different this year. I had chosen to invite my bf mom here and have a little time to celebrate how I managed to survive 36 years - and also, yesterday shit started. Of course.
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I found refuge in my work. In this ring.
The bone that showed up for me is the sacral, in particular the tail bone.
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The coccyx, better known as your tailbone, is the very last part of your vertebrae, and is the remnant of a lost tail. Actually, pretty much every mammal on earth had a tail at some point in their lives, even if it was while they were developing in the womb. Take humans, for example. Between stages 14 and 22 of human embryogenesis, one can actually observe a tail-like structure that is later absorbed.
This feature of embryological development was one of the mainstays of Ernst Haeckel's theory of recapitulation. Commonly stated as "ontogeny recapitulates phylogeny," the theory basically holds that the process of developing from embryo into adult parallels various stages of the organism's evolution from an ancestral state to its current one.
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While you can't do much about your tail bone...
What are you carrying from your ancestors, from your life so far, that is time to let go of?
Which old stories and patterns are still shaping your structure?
What is of no use to you and is hindering your evolution into a better human being?
And what is worthy of being kept, like this bone that reminds you of when you were wild?
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With a rutile quartz and snake skin below it, for acceptance of change.
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Today I decide to push through it. To push through the old pattern that tells me that I can't gave good things and that I am a victim of other people passive aggressive stuff.
Today, instead of falling into a pattern of giving up because it always goes wrong, I stood with my decision to have company and celebrate.
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Sphenoid Moth
Posted on Instagram on January 27, 2019
Just call me the Bones Lady 🤣🤣🤣
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I finished the first Sphenoid Moth.
I am in love.
I want to make a million of these.
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I love how it looks like a butterfly and anyone seeing it would think it's just that.
But it's actually a bone.
A little secret between me and the wearer 😜
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The bone that sits behind the eyes, seat of the pituitary and pineal gland.
The place of the third eye.
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I was so excited to discover the existence of this bone early this morning. If you missed it, you can go back a couple of posts and read my ramblings 😅
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While creating it, so many thoughts crossed my mind. So many intuitions.
Many feel like those dreams that you can't remember - that are just slightly out of reach. I am confident they will be revealed to me the more I sit with the bones and listen.
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Intuition. Vision. The fact that the only single bone in our cranium looks like a moth (even though they generally say it looks like a butterfly 🤔). The fact that its shape in some way reminds me of the pelvic bone. So that there is a kind of resonance of above-below.
The fact that it holds the gland that regulates so much in our body - and so much that has an influence on how our mind works. On how we react to things.
I read an article mentioning how it's said that by clearing this space, old traumas are removed.
How the optic nerve passes through a hole in this bone.
How some of the parts that work toward swallowing are attached to this bone.
Ramblings, I told you. Still waiting for a clearer vision while I enjoy the whole journey.
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Now around my neck. It feels good to be adorned in bones.