THROUGH THE STORM (Hold my hand) II

Posted on Instagram on June 20, 2019

"I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me, too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you." (Frida Kahlo)
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This is for you, out there in the big world. If you are feeling weird and broken and all wrong. Not so good at functioning. Without a clue about how to love yourself.
Let's learn together this strange, beautiful business of holding ourselves in love.
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A week back, more or less, I showed you the talisman I made for myself.
The hand to hold when I need someone to hold my hand.
To remind myself that I have ME to rely upon. To stop outsourcing all of my love.
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I can't tell you how often I have reached for that little hand in this week. Day and night. I held it while I was breathing, trying to bring myself down from a panic attack.
I held it at night, in bed, when the anxiety was creeping on me.
I held it while I was doing my best to be brave and breathe through the fear.
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It feels like an anchor. It brings me back to the present a little. Away from the oppressive thoughts.
Its smooth surface, its shape, are comforting.
I swear I extra polished it by all the rubbing of my fingers! 🤣
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I said I would try to replicate it, and I did. The hand shape is sand cast from my own, while the rest is hand fabricated.
No hand will be the same.
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This one features a hand that is made of a "custom alloy" of silver with some copper in it. It gives it warmth and life. Now that it's high polished, you will see only a light pink tone to it. By wearing it, the oxides will turn it more toward a pale golden or darker pink (depending on your ph). While it was resting on my bench, it turned pale gold, for instance.
Magic! I like it!
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A sterling silver snake on top holds a clear quartz, one of my favorite, all healing crystals.