BURIAL

Posted on Instagram on June 19, 2019

A few months ago I purchased some Baltic Amber.
The idea was a serie of pieces on the idea of a burial for what is dead and we need to let go of.
Of course my plans got sidetracked.
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The work I am doing the past month is focused on the different parts of me that "live" inside of me and that shape up my behaviour, reactions and so on - putting it simple and short here 😅
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With the help of my therapist and EMDR, we are seeing them, listening to them and their reasons for acting like they do - in ways that sometimes are harmful or painful for me.
And to reassure them that they are appreciated and loved, but that we need to work out better ways together.
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Some parts I knew since long, like the Child. Others are "new".
Some, the ones connected the most to my issues of panic anxiety depression OCD, are putting up quite the resistance.
They put me through explosions of harsh emotions.
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They are scared that I want to kick them out.
And of letting go of the patterns they know, for something unknown. .
A lot of the process is feeling.
The past three weeks have been a rollercoaster of deep chaos ad deep peace - chaos during the resistance, a sense of fullness and peace when one of the "troublesome" parts finds her spot.
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Monday was one of those bad days.
In the morning I went to the bench, for relief, and I found a bee dead on my desk.
And I knew it was time.
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I created the pendant as a burial for the bee. As a symbolical burial for the patterns and habits that it's time to let go.
It's a way to honour the role they had in my life, how they protected me when I didn't have better ways. It's a thankyou, and a farewell.
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The delicate body of the bee was encased in resin inside the pendant - I originally planned it in the center, but when she floated in the resin and went to the side, it felt right: this is not a piece to showcase the bee. This is a safe place for her to rest. This is a way to keep honouring her efforts.
This is the hope that the parts of me will find grace, freedom, the peace they deserve.
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Sterling silver, vintage Baltic amber, hand fabricated.