A Place for Tears

Posted on Instagram on October 7, 2018

"It's no coincidence that our tears are made of salt water and salt water heals wounds. So cry until your eyes burn; your soul knows how to heal itself."
(Amelia Jane)
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I am being brutally tested.
Stumbling and pushing against shame, humiliation, lack of love.
Asking for what I need and deserve.
Doors slammed in my face.
Refusing to bow my head again. As I used to. As I was taught to.
Undeserving unworthy "too much" little Alice.
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And all the feels.
Fluctuating and sinking between sadness and anger and hurt and rage.
What I learned is that I must embrace these emotions. If I refuse to feel them, because they are unpleasant, they will pile up inside of me and become worse.
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So this is a place for tears.
Born with the Dark Moon already pulling at my hair.
Born in sorrow and rage.
Lovingly crafted in tears. Almost broken once in rage and frustration.
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On one side, the Moon. Wild and powerful, Queen.
On the other side a hollow space with a Seeing Heart, filled with salt water and crystals.
Pink tourmaline. May your heart be safe.
Blue Apatite. May your throat be open to let your wails out.
Garnet. May your blood run strong through you.
Herkimer diamond quartz. May your vision be cleaned by your tears.
A pinch of dirt. From where we come. The home to our bodies.