Posted on instagram on July 21, 2018

"I exist as I am, that is enough"
(Walt Whitman)
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This moth was born because I could not part with the first one I made - even though I had promised her to someone already.
I had to step way out of my comfort zone.
"I am bad, I am not keeping up what I said. I should give her that one, even if my heart screams no, because I said I would".
"I am not worthy of keeping that one. Besides, she could be offended by my change of mind."
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I am stepping through a couple of testing days - triggers for my childhood-rooted issues left and right, and me reacting sometimes in the old ways, sometimes in new ones. Small victories.
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So what could I do to push myself away from these unkind thoughts?
I talked with my Inner Child. As she was crying for attention, crying from fear and old wounds. I tried to make her feel safe. To show her we are stronger than they made us believe.
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And we sat together and created this Moth of Magic. Not as a replacement. Not as a substitute. We decided that we are worthy of keeping the first one, and that we trust the kindness of people and that this is meant to be. We trust.
So this Moth turned out to be a sister of the first one, but different in many ways.
She has a body that is more voluptuous - she is definitely feminine, definitely adult.
She demanded labradorite with royal blue flash - the night, the full night, dark and of the Goddess.
She is here to open your eyes to the fact, the holy truth, that you are enough.
That your existence alone makes you enough, essential to the fabric of the Universe.
That there is space for you to grow and improve, but you, by existing, are enough.
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She feels like the Crone.
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And I hope her new keeper will find her message perfect 💙