Finding my way

Posted on Instagram on March 16, 2019

It feels like I am finding my way again.
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It has been a tough challenging month for me, physically and mentally, and I wasn't able to deal with most things - included being online.
Migraine for days and days and days.
Panic. Strong panic.
Anxiety in every corner.
Fear. A sense of loss and a sense of being lost.
And all I could do was to go inward and make sense of it, while using my energy to take care of myself in the most basic things. Eat. Wash yourself. Don't convince yourself you are having a relapse.
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It has been brutal in many ways. It has broken me. It has made me stronger.
It has challenged me.
It has taught me to let go of some burdens.
It has taught me gratitude.
It has reminded me of the importance of taking a deep breath.
It has taught me to find balance on shaky ground.
It has forced me to stare at my own darkness and hold her hand.
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And now, here I am. Back online.
It feels awkward and marginally scary.
I am happy about connecting.
I have to be confident that I will be able to keep my center and not let things bring me down.