Posted on Instagram on January 13, 2019

Five.
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Days passed and I felt stronger.
I could look back and see how much different I had behaved.
In the past I would have been full of xanax and totally powerless in my try to run away from the unpleasant.
I would have felt a victim of bad luck.
I would have been traumatized by the depth of despair and panic.
I would have bent this way and that to beg someone, anyone to comfort and save me.
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I helped myself with meds? Yes.
Made myself numb? Nope.
I sat with my emotions, traumas. I talked to the parts of me. I listened.
I took care of myself the best I could.
I gave love to my work and my work loved me back.
Yes, my OCD has been high. My hands are scraped by too much compulsive washing, my lips are raw from biting. My neck hurts from tension strain. I didn't eat much for a few days cause food scared me.
But I took care of myself the best I could and that made a difference.
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So this piece is something about having confidence, for me...Because I had a vision and no idea how to make it happen. And it involved a lot of silver. Which scares me because hey money! 😅
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This is a well. This is you.
This is an eye, giant cosmic snake eye. Inviting you in. Again, inward.
I chose a clear quartz that is not transparent at all, it seems almost dusty.
Because when we look inside, our waters are hardly clear. They often feel muddy. The treasures to be find inside often seem just like sparks and illusions.
But if you are determined enough to observe, to change perspective, you will spot the opal inside, with its magical rainbow of colors.
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Wrapped around the well is a snake. On the back, I carved a galaxy.
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May you find the courage to sink inside of yourself. May you be brave enough to dive in the deep waters.
May the Cosmic Snake envelope you in her embrace. May you always remind that you belong to the Universe.